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I’ve cut carbs until I’m down to one serving per meal (I’m supposed to be eating 3-4), and the best # I could get was 180, last night, after working out. I increased my goddamn insulin dose agoddamgain This FUCKING INSULIN isn’t FUCKING WORKING. I CAN’T WRITE IF I CAN’T CONCENTRATE ON THE FUCKING SCREEN. […]

I’ve been tossing and turning in bed, thinking of Durban. I don’t know why I’m thinking of it again, now, suddenly, when I’ve gone so long without talking about it, ruminating, thinking anything beyond, “I drank a lot in Africa.” But I remember. I’m lying awake remembering things; leaning out the big back window of

If you haven’t seen it yet, Joss Whedon’s award acceptance speech for Equality Now: “Why aren’t you asking a hundred other guys why they *don’t* write strong women characters?” I got to the end of the speech and burst into tears, because he said so succinctly what I’ve been trying to say with so much

Well, I’ve been feeling like absolute shit the last three days, so I called Dr. S. today and updated him on my numbers, which, like my physical state, are shit. I’ve been having trouble concentrating here at work (sugar headache, blurry vision), my sex drive tanked (yes. I notice these things), I wanted to lie

When my computer(s) died, I lost a lot of music along with them, and have been re-installing music piecemeal. Yesterday I finally re-burned a copy of Alanis Morissette’s first album, Jagged Little Pill. And I was reminded of what I love it so much. Oh, sure, she got the “you must be a femi-nazi bitch

You know what the *real* problem is with the BBC production of Gormenghast? The problem is, Jonathan Rhys-Meyers is really fucking hot, and the director even manages to employ several ingenious ways of getting gratuitious shots of JRM without his shirt on. OK, yea, that’s good, I know. But here’s the bad part: JRM plays

::Snarl::

“If you act like a rock star, people will treat you like a rock star.” – Marilyn Manson

I’m not giving up butter or regular cheese (oh yes, dieticians prefer you eat fat-free cheese, which has the taste and texture of plastic), but I’m switching to decaf coffee at work (caffeine increases the body’s resistance to insulin). So, no more getting drunk, no more plateloads of mashed potatoes, and very little regular coffee

Since I started the new insulin on Thursday, I’ve been checking my blood a little more often, including between meals, just to gauge where I’m at on the new stuff. Every time I tested, no matter what time of day, I was under 200, which is quite respectable, and it was usually near or below